A reminder from God.

I borrow some books last week from the libary and finally started reading it today. They are by Karen Kingsbury, a inspiration author. In the very beginning there's a passage that seems to touch me and speak to me.

"For I know the plans I have for you, " declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" Jer 29:11

I really needed this reminder. I really needed to know that he's there for me. Well.. I know that he's there and he loves me and all, but I think I take all these things for granted. I don't go to church very much, but when I go, a lot of time I feel like crying, becuase I missed the feeling of singing praises to God, the feeling of deep deep love, from Grace. It is so peaceful. Yet I feel wierd going, cuz when I go to a new church I feel like an outcast, even though you aren't cuz you're there for God.

I remember a story my cousin told me. Accepting God is like going on a ride in a train, except, there only one way in, you get on, but no matter how far you are from God... you are always on the train... you just might be in a furthest cart, but you're always there. God will never let you go.

I miss the closeness of fellowship. It is hard growing up. Everyone separate and moves apart. Doing their own separate things. I dont' know. It's just different. You don't have to go every friday to fellowship nor do you have to go on Sunday. I guess seeing people regularly is what makes the trust and the closeness grows. Maybe it's just natural, a part of life to fall apart (to grow up? =P).

Anyways.. I don't really know what I am saying.. just blabbling I guess.